It's just...

[His hands stitch together, then pull apart.]

I reacted poorly, when I realized Clive was gone. And in doing so, I hurt Zahliya. He rightfully broke things off.

[He stops fiddling with his hands finally, opting to instead grip the fabric of his pants.]

I apologized when I came to my senses, but... unlike me, he had only a few minutes to process. And asked for more time, and space.

I deserved the loss, after what I said, but - [His breath hitches.] It hurts when I think about it too long.